I’m having a bit of writers block, bloggers block, whatever we’ll call it.
Although I usually stray away from writing posts when I have this sort of thing going on, but I decided to write something (I still don’t know what yet) in hope that my bloggin’mojo comes back ASAP (and because my pal Katherine suggested so), because I have been taking really cool photos of some new products, buying some gifts for myself (YOLO + My Birthday happened). But, no motivation to type’er all out.
I mean, it’s been a week — that’s a rare treat for me to take off from blogging. Then again I haven’t strayed too far from social media, because I’m on there constantly.
Especially on Instagram. Can’tstopwont’stop. I’m pretty-fying my feed and loving how it’s turning out.
I guess it’s hard to act like everything is normal (when, I mean, I guess it really is back to normal – whatever that may be) when I think about my Father every single day. I don’t think it’ll ever get better. My Father’s passing will always be upsetting, and sad for me. But I’m learning on how to deal with it without it ruining my entire day. I’ve had a bad 2 weeks in April, and a bad week in mid-May. But before April I thought everything was honky-dory. I don’t mean to bring this up in a lot of blog posts; but it’s what has been on my mind, even though I’m slowly getting over that huge hump of missing my favourite person. Ya know?
I’ve been meaning to drive to Santa Cruz and ride my fun bike. I’ve only been riding it around where I live, and I need some different scenery in my life — because hello, California is gorgeous and not to be taken for granted. I’ll be doing a Life Lately post soon, I dear say — which will probs include some cool shots of Santa Cruz.
I’m stoked for it.
By the way. Jeff Kaale on SoundCloud has some amazing tunes you should probably check out if you dig the chill California vibe type of music (I have no idea if it’s California music or not, but I feel like it totally is hehe).
How have you guys been? :)
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Hi Nancy, keep smiling at the sunshine and it will bring happy memories. Lucky you because i bet you have a boat load of good ones with your dad :)
@Jeanne: :)
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We miss him here too, Nancy! He often comes up in conversation, usually as one of us recalls something funny he said or did!
Hey Nancy, I’m sorry you haven’t been feeling up to snuff lately. And you know what? It’s ok to still be sad about losing your dad. There’s no timeline that we’re supposed to follow and say: YUP, I’M GOOD NOW. ALL DONE GRIEVING. Everyone deals with grief in their own way, and for how ever long it takes. Being able to talk about your loss and your dad is what will help you heal. How about sharing on Twitter every day one thing about your dad that makes you smile? Maybe that will help you get back to thinking about him in a happy way. I’d love to hear more about him myself!
I’ve been in a blogging rut too myself-so BORED with it all. I’m trying to figure out a way to make it fun again as well.
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Thanks Tracy
I can’t imagine your loss! Hopefully your bad weeks/days will continue to get less and less! Thinking of you!
@Renee: thank you. xox.
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So sorry to hear about your dad, Nancy. I can’t even imagine how hard it would be to deal with something like that. My dad and I are super close (side note, but this boss called this morning asking to speak to him and I thought today and Tuesday and I started freaking out that he wasn’t at work and had a minor heart attack thinking something had happened to him before realizing it was wednesday, and he was off. Fun times. Damn holiday monday messing with my brain).
I don’t think it’s ever something you can get over, and everyone grieves differently. But I think it’s important to focus on all the good memories you had, and focusing on how much time you did get to spend with him is something. My grandma passed away when I was in grade 3, but I still think about her all the time. I’ll be at work and think, “God, gammie would have loved this dress!”.
Hope things start getting a bit easier for you, and if you ever need to talk, I’m here (virtually, but I don’t mind an excuse to head down to Cali).
<3 Katherine || The Green Bows
@Katherine: thank you xox
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